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i don't let myself think about her --
that's how i get by.
(guilt can only creep in if you
forget to shove a towel under
the crack in the door
but
i'm losing sleep and
smoking too many cigarettes,
until my lungs won't expand
any more)
i thought i'd seen enough
blood to last a lifetime but
i can't stop biting at my lips
until they bleed,
tearing off scabs to see
if i'm still red inside.
(years ago, she and i made a pact
to always be blood sisters.)
it's her second trimester now:
i've come to understand that you
will never leave her for me
because she will give you
what i could not.
i've learned this of myself:
i am not a good person.
please,
i wish that someone
would pry open my ribs with a crowbar
and stab my traitor's heart.
that's how i get by.
(guilt can only creep in if you
forget to shove a towel under
the crack in the door
but
i'm losing sleep and
smoking too many cigarettes,
until my lungs won't expand
any more)
i thought i'd seen enough
blood to last a lifetime but
i can't stop biting at my lips
until they bleed,
tearing off scabs to see
if i'm still red inside.
(years ago, she and i made a pact
to always be blood sisters.)
it's her second trimester now:
i've come to understand that you
will never leave her for me
because she will give you
what i could not.
i've learned this of myself:
i am not a good person.
please,
i wish that someone
would pry open my ribs with a crowbar
and stab my traitor's heart.
Literature
Screaming Under My Breath ...
Screaming Under my Breathlessness
The unexpected moments of remembrances strangle
I am not that strong anymore
I miss you - more than him
Literature
The Forests Light
forest of bloom,
the shades of you,
open thine leaves,
to spread the sheen.
the shining of light,
will not be our fright,
as it shows us the path,
to our glorious land.
Literature
no room
I am so full of me
there is no room
for you in here.
You can be out
there, alongside me,
but there is no room in here.
The hotel is full.
I am the Anna Madrigal
of my own soul.
So you be you
and I will be me.
If there is connection,
I will cherish it.
If there is not,
I will not miss it.
This does not diminish
my love and devotion,
nor your own to me.
It just makes it real.
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Heartbreaking.